Wow, He Forgot About Meh

I must be the most important girl in the world (sarcasm)
So William said he wanted to see meh Wednesday night, it's 12:30am right now.
We talked on Facebook for 2 hours Tuesday evening. He tells meh he'd come to see meh tonight.
I figured he'd be here around 9 like he always, 9 came & gone.
I watched Hot In Cleveland. That show cheered meh up for an hour. They had an encore presentation so I watched the same episode twice. Betty White's character is really annoying in that show. I know you shouldn't wanna harm an old lady but I wanna strangle her.

Will calls at 12:05am. I'm not expecting a phone call. I'm Googling random things when the phone rings. My mother is expecting a call from my other brother who lives in the country. I rush to the phone to answer it. She screams from the bedroom "who is it?!" I'm like it's not Brian, it's for meh. Will tells meh that he spent the night with Terra (Teneasha is her real name) the girl he met at the park a few weeks ago. That she's so awesome & cool. His exact words. I'm like "dude, are u seriously telling meh you blew meh off for another girl?" He's like no, I didn't. So I ask him when he hung with her b/c I was thinking it was another night but not this one. He's like I'm coming from her place. Really?! Then you fucking blew meh off to hang with another girl.I don't care if they were just working on music & she has a boyfriend. Don't make plans with meh, don't fucking say you wanna see meh. He begged on Facebook to see meh (he just wanted to fuck up meh b/c let's face it, that's all I'm good for apparently) I'm like so hurt right now. This hasn't ever happened. He's blew meh off for plenty of things but NEVER for another girl. Or at least not that I know of. He hangs with other girls all the time I assume BUT he doesn't. And he doesn't even feel bad about it. I actually was looking forward to hanging with him then he does this. I just went crazy. I broke TWO cell phones, threw my Bratz doll collection everywhere, broke the fan & even woke my mother up screaming & smashing things against the wall. She's like "what did William do now?" I told her, she looked annoyed. It was all really retarded.

Here's the thing, he claims he forgot & double booked plans. Whatever. I don't believe him & I'm not going for that but hell yeah, he did forget, about meh b/c I'm not good enough for anything.

I tried so hard to not cry while we were on the phone but after he randomly hung up in my face. I had to shed a couple of tears. It's not healthy to keep these feelings in. I was doing so good. I hadn't cried in almost a week & I haven't cut in over a week. I can't believe I let him bring meh down. I was doing SO GOOD,I mean I was actually proud of myself.