Wow, I've been in a good mood since Saturday morning & nothing has been able to bring meh down It's not 4am on Tuesday. I just finished an hour & a half long convo with William. He sounded pretty wasted to meh but he promised he was just really tired. I don't know.He's always like this. He randomly called meh. I'm sitting in the living room when the phone rings. I saw the green lights flashing. I scrambled to get it before my mother heard. The 2nd time he called, she heard & asked if it was my brother. Yeah, b/c jail is gonna let him call us at 2am! I hadn't talked to William since Saturday morning. It's amazing how great I feel when he's not around or we have no communication. It's official. That boy is my trigger. Not anymore tho.
It annoys meh with his slurred speech and complete disregard for the things he says. It's even worst when he's like this tired/drunk.Not sure. But everything is totally word vomit.
For once, he couldn't bring meh down. I feel SO proud of myself right now.I might cry but it won't be from sadness :) Seriously, I'm smiling right now & just..I don't know but this is a great feeling. I didn't let him get to meh. No matter what he rambled off I just said "yeah" & "okayy" or "thank you" if it was an insult of some sort. I told him how I feel & not once did I shed a tear.
He called meh a prude. You know, that doesn't hurt at all. He could do better than that. You can't insult someone with something they are. Nothing wrong with being a prude 7 it's not the first time.My friends voted meh prude on Facebook a couple years ago. I was embarrassed tho b/c like the entire high school saw that label & I couldn't get it off my page for the longest time! So I don't like drinking, smoking or excessive wild sex with strangers or my boyfriend for that matter. Doesn't make meh a bad person. Just makes meh better than 80% of the world in a different way. I have my special quailities.I told him I didn't regret the way I am. That I don't wanna change what he thinks I should. I'm working on my personality & being less "emo" and not letting everything affect meh, especially those online. I'm gonna get thur this. I'm not promising I won't relapse but when something good happens to you, you take it and run. So I'm gonna enjoy this happy state for as long as possible & NO ONE is gonna rain on my parade. Oh gosh. I'm crying happy tears.
I'll end with an excerpt from Demi Lovato's Stronger.
This song got meh thur the hard times these last couple of months.
"And they'll try to speak
Negatively about us,
But they can't say another word
But they'll realize,
Jealousy has taken over their minds
And the words they try
to bring me down withthey all make, us stronger" ;)
It annoys meh with his slurred speech and complete disregard for the things he says. It's even worst when he's like this tired/drunk.Not sure. But everything is totally word vomit.
For once, he couldn't bring meh down. I feel SO proud of myself right now.I might cry but it won't be from sadness :) Seriously, I'm smiling right now & just..I don't know but this is a great feeling. I didn't let him get to meh. No matter what he rambled off I just said "yeah" & "okayy" or "thank you" if it was an insult of some sort. I told him how I feel & not once did I shed a tear.
He called meh a prude. You know, that doesn't hurt at all. He could do better than that. You can't insult someone with something they are. Nothing wrong with being a prude 7 it's not the first time.My friends voted meh prude on Facebook a couple years ago. I was embarrassed tho b/c like the entire high school saw that label & I couldn't get it off my page for the longest time! So I don't like drinking, smoking or excessive wild sex with strangers or my boyfriend for that matter. Doesn't make meh a bad person. Just makes meh better than 80% of the world in a different way. I have my special quailities.I told him I didn't regret the way I am. That I don't wanna change what he thinks I should. I'm working on my personality & being less "emo" and not letting everything affect meh, especially those online. I'm gonna get thur this. I'm not promising I won't relapse but when something good happens to you, you take it and run. So I'm gonna enjoy this happy state for as long as possible & NO ONE is gonna rain on my parade. Oh gosh. I'm crying happy tears.
I'll end with an excerpt from Demi Lovato's Stronger.
This song got meh thur the hard times these last couple of months.
"And they'll try to speak
Negatively about us,
But they can't say another word
But they'll realize,
Jealousy has taken over their minds
And the words they try
to bring me down withthey all make, us stronger" ;)
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