These Are My Magic Beans

It's 2am. I just swallowed 10 of my anti depressant pills. I was going for 18 (the entire bottle) but seeing as how I hate swallowing pills the plan got cut short. I'm not sure what I'm expecting them to do.I just don't wanna feel the way I feel right now. I've dried my tears & wiped my nose. Now I just have to wait for them to kick in.I guess I'll head to sleep & see what happens. More than likely I'll wake up sick. Any feeling is better than what I just went thur. 30 minutes of crying & slitting my wrist. I cut too deep. They started to hurt too much so I stopped. I don't wanna feel this way. I want so much to stop being all "emo" and get over the things in my life that don't go so well. But like Dee said maybe I was born this way. It's not so easy to get over it when you've always been that way.

Welcome To The Lowest Point my life. I'm sure there will be more.
This is what HE did to meh *rolls eyes*

My head is seriously starting to hurt. That's from the crying I hope.