William is taking meh home this evening.
I won't have internet access there so no daily blog updates.
Maybe once a week & since I can't remember what happens, it'll just be from that day.
I guess I'll start keeping a journal but then no one will even get to hear my thoughts. It has it's downside. I might be able to "steal" the neighbors wi-fi. We'll see.
He planned to take meh home yesterday but I weaseled my way out of it by making excuses. I'm totally using him for their internet. jk I kept putting it off til it was 9:30pm and too late to leave. I'm sure this time he's taking meh home. He says we start to fight & can't get along when we stay together more than a day. He's right. Plus, I'm sure he's tired of sleeping on the floor.He's giving meh the bed two nights in a row. I can't sleep on the floor, it has carpet but I'm far too bony for that. It's been nice sleeping in his bed without him (:
Last night, I was "working" I was on this site, Reverbnation. It's where musical artists set up profiles & upload songs for people to find em. He's on the hunt for a lead singer for his band. My job was to listen to local artists in his area in the alternative, rock & metal genres. So far we've found about 3. We don't like the same type of music. I'm like dude, I don't know what good music is. I like Hannah Montana's winy ass annoying voice. I found one band, they were so awesome & they're hott too. He's like no Jonas Brothers wannabes. I was like ugh, it's taking you too long to get famous.He's like well, it doesn't happen over night. I know that but he's been working at this long before he ever met meh. I bet if his mother reads this, she'll jump to the conclusion that I don't believe in his music. I never said that! They both think that too. It's so unfair what people think of you & you really can't do anything about it.
I totally believe in his music, he's so determined. He spends ALL his time either working on this music, playing basketball or doing something sexual with meh. It makes meh feel bad that I use to have dreams but I didn't do anything to make em happen. I tried but my best was always like 3rd best. I was gonna go to Princeton. I was gonna be the next Avril Lavinge. I was gonna write a best selling book. I was gonna be a model. Maybe I should have just aimed to be a crackwhore. That seems attainable. I'm such a fucking loser. Losers deserve to die. I'm taking up breathing space that others actually need. FML. I wanna bang my head into the wall but they'll scream at meh.
On a side note: I have an infection, Candidiasis so I'm drinking lots of cranberry juice here to piss out the toxins. Oh, what fun this is. I've peed 10 times in an hour. This is really annoying. Even more annoying this is the 2nd time I've had this in less than a year. I was reading about it. I did NOT like how it said if it keeps reoccurring you may have cancer or AIDS. Wtf? It's nothing but a more dangerous yeast infection. Kay, so it is something I should worry about. This is too much info but only girls read this so get over it.
I won't have internet access there so no daily blog updates.
Maybe once a week & since I can't remember what happens, it'll just be from that day.
I guess I'll start keeping a journal but then no one will even get to hear my thoughts. It has it's downside. I might be able to "steal" the neighbors wi-fi. We'll see.
He planned to take meh home yesterday but I weaseled my way out of it by making excuses. I'm totally using him for their internet. jk I kept putting it off til it was 9:30pm and too late to leave. I'm sure this time he's taking meh home. He says we start to fight & can't get along when we stay together more than a day. He's right. Plus, I'm sure he's tired of sleeping on the floor.He's giving meh the bed two nights in a row. I can't sleep on the floor, it has carpet but I'm far too bony for that. It's been nice sleeping in his bed without him (:
Last night, I was "working" I was on this site, Reverbnation. It's where musical artists set up profiles & upload songs for people to find em. He's on the hunt for a lead singer for his band. My job was to listen to local artists in his area in the alternative, rock & metal genres. So far we've found about 3. We don't like the same type of music. I'm like dude, I don't know what good music is. I like Hannah Montana's winy ass annoying voice. I found one band, they were so awesome & they're hott too. He's like no Jonas Brothers wannabes. I was like ugh, it's taking you too long to get famous.He's like well, it doesn't happen over night. I know that but he's been working at this long before he ever met meh. I bet if his mother reads this, she'll jump to the conclusion that I don't believe in his music. I never said that! They both think that too. It's so unfair what people think of you & you really can't do anything about it.
I totally believe in his music, he's so determined. He spends ALL his time either working on this music, playing basketball or doing something sexual with meh. It makes meh feel bad that I use to have dreams but I didn't do anything to make em happen. I tried but my best was always like 3rd best. I was gonna go to Princeton. I was gonna be the next Avril Lavinge. I was gonna write a best selling book. I was gonna be a model. Maybe I should have just aimed to be a crackwhore. That seems attainable. I'm such a fucking loser. Losers deserve to die. I'm taking up breathing space that others actually need. FML. I wanna bang my head into the wall but they'll scream at meh.
On a side note: I have an infection, Candidiasis so I'm drinking lots of cranberry juice here to piss out the toxins. Oh, what fun this is. I've peed 10 times in an hour. This is really annoying. Even more annoying this is the 2nd time I've had this in less than a year. I was reading about it. I did NOT like how it said if it keeps reoccurring you may have cancer or AIDS. Wtf? It's nothing but a more dangerous yeast infection. Kay, so it is something I should worry about. This is too much info but only girls read this so get over it.
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