Sliced Up Insides

Grr, I don't usually bitch about my weight like most anorexics but I feel like a totally fat ass lately. I'm seriously bloated. I'm developing fat rolls from slouching so much.My tummy is fattening up like Chunk from The Goonies. This is so unattractive. In my head, there's no excuse for being fat around the bell area except for if you are pregnant & after the baby. You have to lose the weight within a year or it's just a sad sight to see.

Plus it feels like a razor blade is lodged inside my throat.I have to constantly keep drinking something or it closes up & I start wheezing for breath. When I swallow, my throat like pulsates & it feels like a needle is being stuck into the back of it where my tonsils use to be. This is the most uncomfortable feeling ever. This is worst than being chocked on penis O.o

Boo, I'm going to see to my doctor tomorrow at 8:45 am. So I have to leave my home at 7:15 to get there in an hour. I guess I shouldn't stay up til 5 am this morning. I called Nike,my therapist & she told my doctor that I kinda OD-ed on my anti depressants. Now they're gonna be monitoring my activity & behavior every time I come in. Oh great. You're a smart on Brittanie.

Kay, right now my mother is being highly annoying. She's attempting to comb her hair & all she's doing is howling, moaning & screaming b/c it's so kinky/nappy. You know how black people have bad hair? She has a shitload of it & it's only straight when she flat irons it. Right now it's bushy & all over the place.