They Think I'm Funny, FML

Today I realized most of PrettyThin, thinks I'm funny.
I don't know why it's just now dawning on meh. I hear it everyday.
-"You're so hilarious"
-"your post are so funny"
-"you crack meh up"
-"your post are so in a funny way"

I don't wanna be funny. I learned when I was 10 (don't ask where) that ugly people are pretty much always funny. That's how we distract people from our looks, our ugliness. Think about it? How many attractive comedians are there? I mean some are okay looking like cute in a goofy way but no one is ever gonna look twice at them!
I wanna be pretty & gorgeous. Not the ugly girl with a great sense of humor. This is so fucked up.

Frodette :) came up with an idea to have the PrettyThin awards. It was approved by a couple of members, Taylor made it a sticky & now we're in the nomination stage.
It seemed like a good idea at the time. I still think it's a good idea but now I'm annoyed.
I've already been nominated as funniest member four times, now that doesn't sound like alot but it's getting to meh. OMG, this confirms my theory that everyone thinks I'm a joke. This is a curse & I'm not cool with being "blessed" with it.

In middle school, I received the "goofiest award" It infuriated my mother. "You think my daughter is funny? What kinda insult is this?" She actually went to the school & gave my Christian teacher a good scolding. She still won't let meh live it down. I just informed her that I'm nominated for that award. She burst into laughter. Mother it's NOT funny.

I think this bothers meh b/c every since I can remember I've always been the funniest person in the room. In everything, in my looks (I've been called funny looking many times) my personality & with the stupid things i say unintentionally. Now that I'm older, it's not so flattering. I feel like being humorous is associated with stupidity.No one takes a funny person seriously. My boyfriend doesn't even take meh seriously! I'm not Ellen, I can't pull it off. It's not like being a comedian is my lifes goal. It's not, never has been, never will be. I'm a walking, talking joke. This is gonna drive meh crazy all night, well until it's over.

I did another nomination for "most likely to live life to the fullest" Seriously? I was 20 when I lost my virginity. I'm almost 21, living with my mother & I've never been to a club. I'm not sure I'm older enough tho. Anyhow, they're all off! Don't get meh wrong, I'm grateful that I'm being recognized but geez, could I get a nomination of use?! Ellay gets that award b/c she's all hardcore. Ugh, I'm jealous.My life is boring and selfish.

Here's the selfish thing. I have half a mind to be like "omg, you guys KNOW I deserve pretty much every award there is. Maybe there are 5 other people who are better than meh. But not many. I'm so full of myself when it comes to online things. I spend 12 of 24 hours on that site. I reply to almost every thread. I comment everyone's pages. Omg, EVERYONE adds meh as a friend, especially the newbies. I'm always getting told my pictures are nice & that

Gosh, fuck my life. I'm a hilarious loser.