Facebook & PrettyThin R Gonna Run My Life!

First Williams mother found my blog thur my PrettyThin page.
Then Kae found Will thur my Facebook (and Myspace)
Now Michelle is talking to William on Facebook.
She told meh that he added her. He tells meh she added him.
I don't know who to believe.
Some stranger from London that I met on a disordered eating site or my boyfriend who let's face it, hasn't always been the greatest boyfriend.
I know, I shouldn't care about this. She's a little kid who is miles away.
What do I have to worry about. Nothing except for Will dumping meh again b/c I'm just not cool with it. I just don't get why he has to be friends with other girls. It's like I'm not good enough.
I'm not intelligent enough apparently. The whole word sees that.
I know the way I am is completely psychotic but I can't help it.
He was like she's wise for her age. So, I'd rather act like a little kid than BE a little kid.

He told meh to be nice to her, uh, why?
I was like are u gonna tell meh that I what I can and cannot do to her b/c she's your friend now?
I see some traits from that incident with Kae showing up.
I think our relationship would be perfect if there were no other girls involved.
He doesn't need any new females friends if he doesn't already have them.
Other girls be it serious or just friends is gonna be what tears us apart b/c I can't deal with it.
He doesn't even associate with meh on Facebook.
He never pokes meh, he never writes on my wall, he barely even talks to meh when he's on there. He got into a fucking poking war with Michelle. Seriously, what is he? Fucking 5?
Then it shifted into another convo about teen pregnancy & how apparently they both agree that having children is selfish. I get where they're coming from but OMG, why was he having that convo with another girl? Although, he's made it perfectly clear he doesn't want children with meh or any kids at all. Eh, that's cool. He's not the only guy I can make a baby with :D Fuck, I don't even care to finish where this was going....

It's like he's embarrassed by meh. When we first started dating, then got engaged he wanted us to have synced relationship status on there. I'm actually glad during the"break" we ended the relationship on there.
I NEVER wanna go back into it. I'm happy with my status being widowed b/c most times I wish he was dead so it works.
I remember when he was NEVER on Facebook.
Now he's on there even when we can't call meh or respond to my texts.

I logged into Facebook yesterday & see in the news feed that she was now friends with him.
Same as last week when I logged in and saw that she was friends with Chris.
I was thinking "gosh, how does Chris know her?!
People are so weird on Facebook, just b/c your friend has a friend on there, doesn't mean you need to be friends with them. These mutual friends thing is getting on my fucking nerves. I don't request anyone unless I actually know them.
So I message her like "geez, are u gonna be Facebook friends with every guy I know?"
I swear if she becomes Facebook friends with Jesse, guy I just met who's way hot (he looks like a surfer dude) I'm getting on a flight to London & murder her.
Okay, so Chris added her. Ugh, he's bipolar & fucking crazy.
I don't care if those two did add her. That's why they have the option to accept of reject.
Who is made her accept?
Who made Will accept Kae when she sent him a request.
This is what people are failing to realize. Just b/c someone sends u a request. You are by no mean obligated to accept it. Hell, you can reject your grandmother if u want to.

Last night I texted him. He called told meh I was weird. Yeah, state the fucking obvious!
I'm like why? He said you thought I would fuck a 15 year old. I'm like oh her.
FIRST OFF, no I didn't! That thought never crossed my mind. Her put those fucking words in my mouth. C'mon. I'm not crazy. She's 15 in another country.
I simply wanted to know why he was FB friends with some strange girl "I" met online. I know why I'm friends with her. I have alot of girls from PrettyThin on my Facebook.
Then he told meh he was on Facebook for inspiration. What? I don't quite get that. He needs to get inspiration from other girls? Someone explain to meh please.

So I message her....
Meh:You girls are getting on my nerves. First Keisha(that I didn't even know) then stupid Kae, then Carlisa with her jokes & now you.Ugh, be glad you're not here. Will is like "you're weird, you think I'd fuck a 15 year old old." Blah blah blah....I see you told him I expressed my discontent with y'all talkin to Facebook.
Her: Obviously I told him. Why would he date a 15 year old dude. Think about it. Maybe u don't know him well enough. I'm guessing this is what made u lose him in the first place. Just chill dude and be glad he's with u.
Meh: Don't tell meh to chill, kay? It's so retarded. I hate you. I hate him.You can tell I said that too :p And don't poke him.
Her: LMAO. U hate me? Kay then. Relax. And no. I wont stop poking him. U cant control him OR me. Btw, I now understand why u lose your friends.

I admit. I went a little crazy during that convo. But I don't like her telling meh. I don't know my boyfriend & she gets why I have no friends. No, she doesn't. Has she been around for the past 15 years to know how people actually betray meh. No, don't think so.She's right. I can't control him. He is STILL walking all over meh. Nothing I say matters. He's kinda stopped insulting meh but there are so many other things he needs to fix. And he makes himself seem like GOD around other girls so I look like crazy b/c he's so awesome to them. When he sure as hell doesn't treat meh that way he treats others.
It's just so annoying when you speak to girl, then they go back & run to your boyfriend telling them what you said. When I tell anyone something, its for them to know & not for them to go back and tell others.
I mean this for any situation. I told a friend something, then they went & told our other friends. If it was a group thing, I'd senD out a mass text or FB message.

This is my problem. Why does he need to talk to a 15 year old in London on Facebook that he doesn't even know. I don't know her either but I actually met her somewhere. Not like him who only knows her b/c I know her from the internet! What's the point of that?!
I know my deal, I'm not cool with him being associated with any girl who I knew first.
I think he finally grew apart from Kae, that's cool.
She's dead to meh. The chance that I'll ever even talk to her again is 0, big giant ZERO.
Girls are such a backstabbers, I'm glad I'm not one. I mean a backstabber. I better be a girl or the medical field has some explaining to do about my monthly visitor XD

I wanna go fucking slit my wrist again. Actually I think I will.

Oh yeah, I know I said I wouldn't blog about this when YOU mentioned it on Facebook but c'mon. I couldn't help myself. If I didn't bitch in this blog. I'd go crazy.