I had therapy today. First time in a month. I missed the last appointment due to William. My mother is never gonna let meh hear the last of it. It came around quicker than I had expected. The day I made the appointment was the weekend before I started college. That seems like months ago but I think it was only 3 weeks ago.
I'm not sure. I've lost track of time since I dropped outta school & started literally sleeping thur my days. Everyday is a Saturday for meh. I've totally lost interest in life. I wanna just go to sleep & never wake up again.
For the first time since I've known her, she actually made meh feel bad, about myself & my situation. I was like "oh now, you wanna be my therapist" I TOLD HER THAT. What the hell is this coming from? She had some valid points tho. I started to ignore her. I don't like the truth. My mother has always told meh that truth hurts. Hell yeah! I tuned her out when she started about how William isn't good for meh. (Tell meh something I don't know) About how I should plan for my future & all that jazz. I was like I have NO future there for it would not benefit meh to plan. She totally toook William's mother side when I told her what happened. She said she's being evil to meh b/c she doesn't know how to react to my behavior. No, that's not it! She's mean to meh b/c she's just mean like Cruella Deville. Except she doesn't wanna make coats outta her dogs. She ♥ animals. She has NO valid reason to hate meh. So I'm not the brightest crayon in the box, I'm a cutter & I said some mean things in my blog about her family. Ooooh, gimme something that actually matters.
I don't know, therapy today wasn't the same at all.
I woke up at 6am to download my songs onto my iPod touch. I just couldn't sleep. It was way too hot & humid to be in bed. I lose lbs in my sleep as much as I sweat. I had planned to wake up when my mother did st 8:10 but yeahh....
I started to yawn during the session.I was actually tired even tho last night I went to bed before 1am. That's early for meh! I was so tired when I got back home around 1, that I went to sleep and didn't wake up til 7. I had asked my mother to unplug my iPod & the laptop from the chargers. She didn't! She totally let my shit overcharge by 6 hours. I hate when they stay on the charger longer than intended b/c that weakens the batteries. These batteries aren't like those you can go to CVS & get for $3.99.
I just spent an hour on PrettyThin trying to get reacquainted with the site b/c I haven't really been there the past few days. Blah, I need songs for my iPod *rolls eyes* 808 just isn't enough.
I'm not sure. I've lost track of time since I dropped outta school & started literally sleeping thur my days. Everyday is a Saturday for meh. I've totally lost interest in life. I wanna just go to sleep & never wake up again.
For the first time since I've known her, she actually made meh feel bad, about myself & my situation. I was like "oh now, you wanna be my therapist" I TOLD HER THAT. What the hell is this coming from? She had some valid points tho. I started to ignore her. I don't like the truth. My mother has always told meh that truth hurts. Hell yeah! I tuned her out when she started about how William isn't good for meh. (Tell meh something I don't know) About how I should plan for my future & all that jazz. I was like I have NO future there for it would not benefit meh to plan. She totally toook William's mother side when I told her what happened. She said she's being evil to meh b/c she doesn't know how to react to my behavior. No, that's not it! She's mean to meh b/c she's just mean like Cruella Deville. Except she doesn't wanna make coats outta her dogs. She ♥ animals. She has NO valid reason to hate meh. So I'm not the brightest crayon in the box, I'm a cutter & I said some mean things in my blog about her family. Ooooh, gimme something that actually matters.
I don't know, therapy today wasn't the same at all.
I woke up at 6am to download my songs onto my iPod touch. I just couldn't sleep. It was way too hot & humid to be in bed. I lose lbs in my sleep as much as I sweat. I had planned to wake up when my mother did st 8:10 but yeahh....
I started to yawn during the session.I was actually tired even tho last night I went to bed before 1am. That's early for meh! I was so tired when I got back home around 1, that I went to sleep and didn't wake up til 7. I had asked my mother to unplug my iPod & the laptop from the chargers. She didn't! She totally let my shit overcharge by 6 hours. I hate when they stay on the charger longer than intended b/c that weakens the batteries. These batteries aren't like those you can go to CVS & get for $3.99.
I just spent an hour on PrettyThin trying to get reacquainted with the site b/c I haven't really been there the past few days. Blah, I need songs for my iPod *rolls eyes* 808 just isn't enough.
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