I'm A Joke, Oh Lucky Meh =/

I'm totally a joke to everyone who knows meh.
I realized that today. Wow, can't believe that hasn't ever crossed my mind.
Aha, w/e You can be something you're not & aren't people gonna think what they want about you? Hell, I bet I'm a joke to strangers.
People don't take meh seriously. My boyfriend doesn't take meh serious.
All he ever does is call meh crazy.It gets annoying.I know I'm crazy, he knows I'm crazy, everyone knows I'm crazy. They told us that when I was about 5. How come he needs to repeat it like if u keeping saying it, that will make it less true?

I'm so pitiful & pathetic. Fuck the world.Stop fucking judging meh, you all aren't fit to eat dog shit. Make like Mother Theresa or better yet Jesus Christ then get back to meh & try to say something about meh. I don't see you dying on a cross for people's sin altho to be honest I would NOT mind half this world being crucified. People don't deserve lives. At least I admit that I shouldn't be alive.

William is always bitching about my mother. What has she ever done to him?! Nothing. She says nothing but good about him & he just rags on her all the time. Let's be reminded of whose mother tortures who in this relationship? Whose mother badgered meh til I cried? Whose mother thinks I'm stupid? Whose mother called meh a nutcase & said she didn't want meh in her
house? OMG. He's so fucking deluded.

My friend Elizabeth from PT, talked to Will earlier on Facebook & oddly enough this evening I get a lecture about being independent and doing things for myself. NEVER gonna happen. I've heard it all before. She doesn't want meh to end up homeless. Eh, if times get to hard. I'll end it all. I've always said that....the future is the future & I shouldn't worry about it.
I'm not talented. I don't think people are getting that.
I can slit my wrist. I'm super good at that :D No one is ever gonna take that away from meh.

I FUCKING WISH I WAS DEAD. LIFE IS POINTLESS. FML. People are always depress meh, it's just weird the effect they have on meh. I don't care about what people say but I do care how they think I have potential & how they think if I try really hard I'll get somewhere. Yeah, and you know cows totally can walk on their hind legs like those Chik Fil A cows.