Do I Look Like I'm Made Of Money?!

My brothers birthday was yesterday.I'm not gonna let you know how old he is but let's just say, he ain't what he use to be :D jk
He's not like 60 years old if that's what you're thinking. Ironically enough, he also had a court date today. My mother was like those government people just don't give two shits about us to have someone report to a judge on their birthday. That's just wrong. I don't think he let it ruin his day tho. The thing is the courthouse he has to visit is in another county. They discontinued bus service down there back in March. So instead of paying $4 to go down there, he has to get one of his friends to take him now, suspended license. That requires gas money. Well he blew all of his money before the 8th of the month. He pays rent, he has roommates. Then he came wining to my mother about how he needed $20 to get to his court date so the family friend wouldn't lose her home. When a person signs a bond, they put up their property as collateral in case the inmate skips court. Then they lose everything they have. My other feeling responsible for anything that might happen made meh give him $20. She doesn't have any money at all. Her credit cards are maxed out. Her bank account is empty & there's nothing to eat in this house. I really didn't want to. She favors him. It's always been like this. She goes thur hell & high water for him but god forbid I should ever want something done for meh, she bitches about it. I asked for a 65 cent candy bar today. She said no, we can't afford it! Anyhow, he spent it about an hour after we gave it to him. It's not giving him the money that made meh mad. It's him blowing it when it was suppose to go towards him getting to court. He's so irresponsible.

Wednesday, he calls us & bitches on the phone for like 20 mins about how we shouldn't have given him the money til the day before, not two days before b/c he had spent it. My mother is completely broke. We'll have a bit of money in a few weeks when Staples refunds our money for a computer desk we didn't even get.My mother doesn't trust them. Neither do I.They're totally trying to screw us over. She's been calling them constantly asking when the money will post back to her account. You know how suckish my life is. I'm not going into details about why we virtually have no income. It was 7am when his friend was about to come & pick him up from our place. He spent the night here. He goes, I need money to give her for gas. He's so pathetic. He asks our mother who asks meh to give him my last few dollars. All I had was $16. Fuck it being his birthday. I'm not down with giving him $35. He never gives meh anything anymore. I was like 8 the last time he acknowledged I had a birthday. Now I have one dollar left until they repay meh next month, which I doubt will happen. I'm always asking my friends for money & I rarely even get to spend it. I'm mooching off people and not even using it! I don't have a job. That was the money I made from watching Williams mothers pets a few months ago. It's not so much that I wanna spend money. Just like to know I have it. I don't know what's wrong with meh. It;s like I'm selfish or something. I've always been poor so when I have money I don't wanna spend it. I know what I'd like to buy but it frightens meh. I wonder how having a job would affect meh? I wouldn't wanna spend money I'm working hard for either! I could have a million dollars forever & a day b/c I'd never spend it. It would just sit the bank.

Sooo yeah, I'm not sure where this blog post was suppose to go but that's the story :)