This morning I kinda refused to get up. I was going to get up but it was Saturday.I don't wake up until after 1pm on weekends. Or any day for that matter.
She woke meh up at 8am & I went back to bed. She spend 2 hours trying to get meh up but I just couldn't.Some times a girl just has to sleep off the depression.
My mother did not agree with that.She actually called 911 on meh.
She wasn't bluffing. I jumped into the shower & made myself presentable if I was going to jail again. She always does this!
When the cop came I was in the shower with the bathroom door closed.She talked to meh thur the door. It was a female.I didn't see her but my mother said she was white. She sounded like an angry black girl to meh. She was like ma'am are u gonna go to the appointment with your mother? I was like yeah, sure. Shes' like you're just saying that to get rid of meh.I said sure am. She finally left.
My mother had lied & told the people that I was throwing stuff, cursing at her & that I had a doctors appointment to go to at 2pm. It's Saturday & besides I haven't been to the doctors since I was 15. How the hell did those dumb ass cops believe that?!
She just wanted meh to go to Camp Creek shopping plaza with her to pick up her new eyeglasses.
She had Candie's glasses now.They came with a cute pink velvet case.I was like "that's so unfair. My shitty glasses I got 5 years ago came with an ugly brown case that didn't even open. You just slipped in the glasses thur one end.
I did NOT wanna leave our home today but since I've been slitting my wrist like I'm Edward Scissorhands, my mother didn't trust meh to be left alone in here for 5 hours. Apparently, she might come home & I'm bleeding to death in my bed. I don't get it.If I was gonna succeed in killing myself I would've been a corpse by now.I've been doing this since 13. People need to calm down. She has a new rule that if I keep cutting she will kick meh out. I'm a danger to myself & to her. Omg. I'm a self harmer. Keyword: self. I have no interest in hurting others. I'm like that's so unfair. I'm a grown woman. What I do to my body is my business & it doesn't affect anyone. Living here is getting too hard. I thought when I was an adult I'd be free but she still has all these retarded rules. It was hott outside. I hate sun, sun means a tan. A tan means I get darker. I'm already bordering on a dark chocolate complexion. I don't wanna be any darker! My hair sucks these days so I couldn't hide my pimple with my bangs b/c they're incapable of falling onto my forehead & as huge as my shade were they wouldn't cover it either. Btw, I named my pimple Nancy.
On the way there, standing at the bus station, waiting for the bus. This guy started talking to meh & he would not leave meh alone. Apparently, he knew meh from high school. The one high school that I was only at for 3 months.Wtf? He totally wasn't cute & not my type at all. I don't like dark skinned, thugged out ghetto guys that are way buff with big teeth. Urgh. He talked to meh the entire time waiting, then texted meh on the bus even tho we were sitting next to each other. I was so annoyed. Gawd, you have no idea. I was waiting for the bus to get to his stop. How did he have my number you ask? I gave it to him. I give my number to any guy who asks for it. It's not like I'm gonna do ANYTHING with them It's just nice. We'll text for a few days then he'll fade away like all the rest. He was getting way ahead of himself & us. When he got off he was like remember where i live, There's a possibility you might come over here on day so we can watch movies.Um no! When HELL freezes over. Maybe if he was cute but I don't associate with ugly guys. Yes, I am shallow.
We went to Camp Creek, picked up her glasses. There was a lady in the eye store with her two daughters. As soon as we walked in they were all on us giving us the stink eye. I did not appreciate that. I whispered to my mother "do you see how they're looking at us?" People are always looking down upon us. It's really annoying. The girls were okay looking, their mother was just busted. She had on a raggedy, nappy fake ponytail to match her raggedy, nappy real hair. A perm would be nice if you're gonna try to pull of fake ponytails. She wasn't attractive at all. Yuck!
Then we went to Target where we spent $80 that we don't have on stuff that should have totaled to $40. Target is such a rip off. For meh a newspaper boy hat in black, pink leopard print tote, Alice in Wonderland dvd, Madea Goes to Jail dvd, a novel from Lisi Harrison called Alpha & a Sprite Zero. For mother, jeans, Sprite Zero & a small bag of Garlic & Rosemary potatoes chips (they were gross, left this disgusting taste in my mouth for 20 mins.) We also bought Lysol disinfectant spray, 2 tubes of toothpaste, 2 toothbrushes & Angel Soft tissue.
The sales associate was like completely incompetent. She didn't give meh the $5 gift card that came with the purchase of the Alice dvd. She's argued with meh about it, even tho the display in the store and the ad in the paper clearly said it. I was like "oh fuck it" It was only $5. Not much of a lost but still. Had it been like $50 oh, she wouldn't gotten beat.
She didn't even ring up my pink earbuds, I put on the counter. I realized when we were outta the store & on the bus that they weren't on the receipt or in my bag. Fuck up! I needed those. William broke my Goldish ones on Thursday. Either I listen to his music or the bands he likes or I don't listen to anything. He's always like talk to him on the ride to his place & back to my place. He always takes them but we NEVER actually talk. Talking for us will just lead to arguing so why bother?
I feel like I wasted money on that book. It's from the Clique series. I started reading the very first book in it when I was 13! This is the last book. I have about 12 other books to cover in between those.I'm gonna be so lost & I know I won't read that book unless I'm riding public transpo for some hours or when my internet & cell gets disconnected at the beginning of August. Until then it's going under my bed with all the other forgottens. I was like "I'm too old for this book" but I still wanted it. The main character is 14! It's basically Gossip Girl but better and not so crappy.
Then we were to A.J. Wright (it's a discount store that just opened in Georgia) so mother could return her application. As we exited the alarm triggered, It scared the shit outta meh b/c this time I didn't actually have anything stolen in my bag. I hate when that happens.I'm always so paranoid that someone actually slipped something into my bag while I was in the store & framed meh. So the loss prevention lady stops us. She's like "hold up, come back here. Something in y'all bag made our detector go off when you went thur the door. No shit sherlock. We heard it. We didn't need her to repeat it. I had a good mind to run even tho I didn't have anything. I was like"oh, we just bought dvd's from Target" I forgot that those security devices inside trigger the detectors for most stores. I offered to give her the bag so she could look thur it. She was no, go ahead. Gosh, that easy. Does that excuse always work? I have a good mind to mess with people, take the dvds everywhere I go & pretend like I've stolen something when the alarm goes off. But keep the receipt with meh so I can be like "I didn't steal these, I bought these from Target, Stop falsely accusing meh, I'll sue!" I could totally make a huge scene and get paid. A few years ago I wanted to be a professional con/ scam artist. What ever u call them.
When we got home at 4, my mother left again to go return something at Walgreen's.I went to bed & did not fully wake back up again til 9:50 pm. I was so freaking tired. I was texting people before I fell asleep. I woke up and had16 texts. I just deleted em all.I'm; too lazy. At 7, she bought meh a hot dog & 3 fry like potatoes.I ate them & drunk the remainder of my Sprite & a cup of chocolate milk. That can't be good. In the morning I'll be 2 lbs heavier. Gah. It's 12 now as I'm ending this.
She woke meh up at 8am & I went back to bed. She spend 2 hours trying to get meh up but I just couldn't.Some times a girl just has to sleep off the depression.
My mother did not agree with that.She actually called 911 on meh.
She wasn't bluffing. I jumped into the shower & made myself presentable if I was going to jail again. She always does this!
When the cop came I was in the shower with the bathroom door closed.She talked to meh thur the door. It was a female.I didn't see her but my mother said she was white. She sounded like an angry black girl to meh. She was like ma'am are u gonna go to the appointment with your mother? I was like yeah, sure. Shes' like you're just saying that to get rid of meh.I said sure am. She finally left.
My mother had lied & told the people that I was throwing stuff, cursing at her & that I had a doctors appointment to go to at 2pm. It's Saturday & besides I haven't been to the doctors since I was 15. How the hell did those dumb ass cops believe that?!
She just wanted meh to go to Camp Creek shopping plaza with her to pick up her new eyeglasses.
She had Candie's glasses now.They came with a cute pink velvet case.I was like "that's so unfair. My shitty glasses I got 5 years ago came with an ugly brown case that didn't even open. You just slipped in the glasses thur one end.
I did NOT wanna leave our home today but since I've been slitting my wrist like I'm Edward Scissorhands, my mother didn't trust meh to be left alone in here for 5 hours. Apparently, she might come home & I'm bleeding to death in my bed. I don't get it.If I was gonna succeed in killing myself I would've been a corpse by now.I've been doing this since 13. People need to calm down. She has a new rule that if I keep cutting she will kick meh out. I'm a danger to myself & to her. Omg. I'm a self harmer. Keyword: self. I have no interest in hurting others. I'm like that's so unfair. I'm a grown woman. What I do to my body is my business & it doesn't affect anyone. Living here is getting too hard. I thought when I was an adult I'd be free but she still has all these retarded rules. It was hott outside. I hate sun, sun means a tan. A tan means I get darker. I'm already bordering on a dark chocolate complexion. I don't wanna be any darker! My hair sucks these days so I couldn't hide my pimple with my bangs b/c they're incapable of falling onto my forehead & as huge as my shade were they wouldn't cover it either. Btw, I named my pimple Nancy.
On the way there, standing at the bus station, waiting for the bus. This guy started talking to meh & he would not leave meh alone. Apparently, he knew meh from high school. The one high school that I was only at for 3 months.Wtf? He totally wasn't cute & not my type at all. I don't like dark skinned, thugged out ghetto guys that are way buff with big teeth. Urgh. He talked to meh the entire time waiting, then texted meh on the bus even tho we were sitting next to each other. I was so annoyed. Gawd, you have no idea. I was waiting for the bus to get to his stop. How did he have my number you ask? I gave it to him. I give my number to any guy who asks for it. It's not like I'm gonna do ANYTHING with them It's just nice. We'll text for a few days then he'll fade away like all the rest. He was getting way ahead of himself & us. When he got off he was like remember where i live, There's a possibility you might come over here on day so we can watch movies.Um no! When HELL freezes over. Maybe if he was cute but I don't associate with ugly guys. Yes, I am shallow.
We went to Camp Creek, picked up her glasses. There was a lady in the eye store with her two daughters. As soon as we walked in they were all on us giving us the stink eye. I did not appreciate that. I whispered to my mother "do you see how they're looking at us?" People are always looking down upon us. It's really annoying. The girls were okay looking, their mother was just busted. She had on a raggedy, nappy fake ponytail to match her raggedy, nappy real hair. A perm would be nice if you're gonna try to pull of fake ponytails. She wasn't attractive at all. Yuck!
Then we went to Target where we spent $80 that we don't have on stuff that should have totaled to $40. Target is such a rip off. For meh a newspaper boy hat in black, pink leopard print tote, Alice in Wonderland dvd, Madea Goes to Jail dvd, a novel from Lisi Harrison called Alpha & a Sprite Zero. For mother, jeans, Sprite Zero & a small bag of Garlic & Rosemary potatoes chips (they were gross, left this disgusting taste in my mouth for 20 mins.) We also bought Lysol disinfectant spray, 2 tubes of toothpaste, 2 toothbrushes & Angel Soft tissue.
The sales associate was like completely incompetent. She didn't give meh the $5 gift card that came with the purchase of the Alice dvd. She's argued with meh about it, even tho the display in the store and the ad in the paper clearly said it. I was like "oh fuck it" It was only $5. Not much of a lost but still. Had it been like $50 oh, she wouldn't gotten beat.
She didn't even ring up my pink earbuds, I put on the counter. I realized when we were outta the store & on the bus that they weren't on the receipt or in my bag. Fuck up! I needed those. William broke my Goldish ones on Thursday. Either I listen to his music or the bands he likes or I don't listen to anything. He's always like talk to him on the ride to his place & back to my place. He always takes them but we NEVER actually talk. Talking for us will just lead to arguing so why bother?
I feel like I wasted money on that book. It's from the Clique series. I started reading the very first book in it when I was 13! This is the last book. I have about 12 other books to cover in between those.I'm gonna be so lost & I know I won't read that book unless I'm riding public transpo for some hours or when my internet & cell gets disconnected at the beginning of August. Until then it's going under my bed with all the other forgottens. I was like "I'm too old for this book" but I still wanted it. The main character is 14! It's basically Gossip Girl but better and not so crappy.
Then we were to A.J. Wright (it's a discount store that just opened in Georgia) so mother could return her application. As we exited the alarm triggered, It scared the shit outta meh b/c this time I didn't actually have anything stolen in my bag. I hate when that happens.I'm always so paranoid that someone actually slipped something into my bag while I was in the store & framed meh. So the loss prevention lady stops us. She's like "hold up, come back here. Something in y'all bag made our detector go off when you went thur the door. No shit sherlock. We heard it. We didn't need her to repeat it. I had a good mind to run even tho I didn't have anything. I was like"oh, we just bought dvd's from Target" I forgot that those security devices inside trigger the detectors for most stores. I offered to give her the bag so she could look thur it. She was no, go ahead. Gosh, that easy. Does that excuse always work? I have a good mind to mess with people, take the dvds everywhere I go & pretend like I've stolen something when the alarm goes off. But keep the receipt with meh so I can be like "I didn't steal these, I bought these from Target, Stop falsely accusing meh, I'll sue!" I could totally make a huge scene and get paid. A few years ago I wanted to be a professional con/ scam artist. What ever u call them.
When we got home at 4, my mother left again to go return something at Walgreen's.I went to bed & did not fully wake back up again til 9:50 pm. I was so freaking tired. I was texting people before I fell asleep. I woke up and had16 texts. I just deleted em all.I'm; too lazy. At 7, she bought meh a hot dog & 3 fry like potatoes.I ate them & drunk the remainder of my Sprite & a cup of chocolate milk. That can't be good. In the morning I'll be 2 lbs heavier. Gah. It's 12 now as I'm ending this.
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