I knew this would happen.
It always does.
In the beginning things were great, he actually cared.
Now he just repeatedly lets meh down and disappoints meh.
Week after week.I mean he doesn't even try.
He doesn't wanna drive meh anywhere. He just wants what he wants then he insults meh and moves on. This relationship isn't healthy at all! Maybe if I wasn't so STUPID, I'd get it and let him go.
I missed my fucking therapy appointment b/c of him.
Third time in a row, I've missed my appointment with the doctor also 3 times b/c of him.
He's gonna say this wasn't his fault. Yes, it was.
When the alarm went off he should have woke up, then woke meh up.
I admit I hit the alarm on his phone. I turned it off but still....he heard it.
We both woke up for it then went back to sleep.
He kept meh up til 6am. When I'm at home I'll go to bed early if I know I have somewhere to go the next morning. I never overslept for school but every fucking time I stay at his place I miss something important. It NEVER fails!
He only wakes up when its something for him.He never misses rehearsal or church (when he worked there)
We finally woke up at 11:45! The first thing he said was "weren't we suppose to go somewhere?" No shit Sherlock! I looked at the time, that ruined my ENTIRE day and next week. It always happens.
Now I can't get another appointment for 3 fucking weeks. I'm gonna go crazy and slit my wrist numerous times before then. When I go back I'll have a month and a week worth of stuff to tell her. If it wasn't for this blog I wouldn't know. The day before therapy I'll just refer him and brush up on my memories :D
In the car he tried to make meh feel bad by having a mock session of therapy. He was the therapist and I was the patient (like always) Okay, that didn't help at all. Our sessions usually include how horrible he is. Talking to him about how he makes meh feel is a complete waste. That's like talking to a brick wall. I know b/c I have and he's stubborn.
His mother doesn't want meh around these days so he's all like "be quiet" and we're sneaking around the house. Luckily she wasn't there when we left at 12. She was out walking the dogs. In the car I actually had to hide leaving their community so she wouldn't see meh.
Now my mother is breathing down my neck about meh missing my appointment. I get it b/c it always happens. Come to think of it, a few days before leading to our breakup, I missed a therapy appointment. She's like "stop thinking you can count on that man" "your mental health is more important" "you should have let him miss you a couple more days & not went" "you're wet behind the ears"
Hate to admit it but she's right.Ugh, the wretched taste of defeat.
I don't even wanna be around him anymore. I told him weeks ago I didn't wanna be in their house anymore. Why be anywhere where you're not welcomed. I can't stand to be with someone who's parents don't like meh.
It always does.
In the beginning things were great, he actually cared.
Now he just repeatedly lets meh down and disappoints meh.
Week after week.I mean he doesn't even try.
He doesn't wanna drive meh anywhere. He just wants what he wants then he insults meh and moves on. This relationship isn't healthy at all! Maybe if I wasn't so STUPID, I'd get it and let him go.
I missed my fucking therapy appointment b/c of him.
Third time in a row, I've missed my appointment with the doctor also 3 times b/c of him.
He's gonna say this wasn't his fault. Yes, it was.
When the alarm went off he should have woke up, then woke meh up.
I admit I hit the alarm on his phone. I turned it off but still....he heard it.
We both woke up for it then went back to sleep.
He kept meh up til 6am. When I'm at home I'll go to bed early if I know I have somewhere to go the next morning. I never overslept for school but every fucking time I stay at his place I miss something important. It NEVER fails!
He only wakes up when its something for him.He never misses rehearsal or church (when he worked there)
We finally woke up at 11:45! The first thing he said was "weren't we suppose to go somewhere?" No shit Sherlock! I looked at the time, that ruined my ENTIRE day and next week. It always happens.
Now I can't get another appointment for 3 fucking weeks. I'm gonna go crazy and slit my wrist numerous times before then. When I go back I'll have a month and a week worth of stuff to tell her. If it wasn't for this blog I wouldn't know. The day before therapy I'll just refer him and brush up on my memories :D
In the car he tried to make meh feel bad by having a mock session of therapy. He was the therapist and I was the patient (like always) Okay, that didn't help at all. Our sessions usually include how horrible he is. Talking to him about how he makes meh feel is a complete waste. That's like talking to a brick wall. I know b/c I have and he's stubborn.
His mother doesn't want meh around these days so he's all like "be quiet" and we're sneaking around the house. Luckily she wasn't there when we left at 12. She was out walking the dogs. In the car I actually had to hide leaving their community so she wouldn't see meh.
Now my mother is breathing down my neck about meh missing my appointment. I get it b/c it always happens. Come to think of it, a few days before leading to our breakup, I missed a therapy appointment. She's like "stop thinking you can count on that man" "your mental health is more important" "you should have let him miss you a couple more days & not went" "you're wet behind the ears"
Hate to admit it but she's right.Ugh, the wretched taste of defeat.
I don't even wanna be around him anymore. I told him weeks ago I didn't wanna be in their house anymore. Why be anywhere where you're not welcomed. I can't stand to be with someone who's parents don't like meh.
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