This is becoming a habit.
Lately Will actually wants to spend time with meh.
It's a nice gesture but I just find it odd that now he wants to hang out.
He was like "do I need a reason to wanna see my girlfriend?"
No but it just seems strange. He was like well, you're the one who wants meh to stay with you.
I'm like well, I only want you to, if you want to.
So he's like I'm just kidding, I said that to get you to come.
I don't like when he does that.I've stopped making threats against him.
I could have spent the night with him last night. I declined again.
I couldn't leave the house.My brother was visiting.
I can't leave my mother with him b/c she says he's "unstable" She feels about him the way Williams mother feels about meh. We might kill them in their sleep.
I trust him unless he's drunk then we have a problem.I'd be scared to stay in the house alone with him too.
I fear that if I keep declining Wills offers to spend time together then he's gonna leave meh. Among all the other reasons he'll leave meh. I'm officially done with college after August, I can bet money I'll still be unemployed & I'll probably go back to cutting.
It's not as easy as people think it is. I'm never gonna change.My life is never gonna change.
I'm the same girl I am today at 20 that I was 5 years ago at 15.
Some things never change.
My mother said it's good to let guys miss you. I said if they miss us too much they're gonna find a new girl that they won't have to miss! She said true but it's still good to go a week without seeing them. She's gonna have meh single again.
He seems so pissed when I decline. It hurts meh b/c I'll seriously do anything for him except force myself thur college only to fail eventually. I might as well quit while I'm ahead.
Grr, I'm never gonna get to spend time with him again. Just everything lately has meh really hesitate to leave my home. There are triggers outside of my home.I don't wanna deal with them.
Lately Will actually wants to spend time with meh.
It's a nice gesture but I just find it odd that now he wants to hang out.
He was like "do I need a reason to wanna see my girlfriend?"
No but it just seems strange. He was like well, you're the one who wants meh to stay with you.
I'm like well, I only want you to, if you want to.
So he's like I'm just kidding, I said that to get you to come.
I don't like when he does that.I've stopped making threats against him.
I could have spent the night with him last night. I declined again.
I couldn't leave the house.My brother was visiting.
I can't leave my mother with him b/c she says he's "unstable" She feels about him the way Williams mother feels about meh. We might kill them in their sleep.
I trust him unless he's drunk then we have a problem.I'd be scared to stay in the house alone with him too.
I fear that if I keep declining Wills offers to spend time together then he's gonna leave meh. Among all the other reasons he'll leave meh. I'm officially done with college after August, I can bet money I'll still be unemployed & I'll probably go back to cutting.
It's not as easy as people think it is. I'm never gonna change.My life is never gonna change.
I'm the same girl I am today at 20 that I was 5 years ago at 15.
Some things never change.
My mother said it's good to let guys miss you. I said if they miss us too much they're gonna find a new girl that they won't have to miss! She said true but it's still good to go a week without seeing them. She's gonna have meh single again.
He seems so pissed when I decline. It hurts meh b/c I'll seriously do anything for him except force myself thur college only to fail eventually. I might as well quit while I'm ahead.
Grr, I'm never gonna get to spend time with him again. Just everything lately has meh really hesitate to leave my home. There are triggers outside of my home.I don't wanna deal with them.
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