So here's a story, the making of this new blog actually inspired meh to find all my old blogs from years ago.I've been blogging since I was 11 years old.
I couldn't find all my blogs but I did my best finding most of them.
Here's what I found in one of them.
This is a poem I wrote in May 2006.I had forgot all about it.I was 16 back then.
Excuse meh if it's crappy...I stopped writing after then....
So it's about how I was feeling at the time.
There's something bothering me
its everything that I ever see
its stalking me everywhere I go
and the answer to it I'll never know
how can I get rid of it
take a minute and down I sit
I try to figure out
what this feeling is all about
where has my sanity gone
its got the best of me insanity has risen
whatever it is has come back into my nerves
and I ask myself could this be what I deserve
it seems as if I'm on a death trip
any moment now I'm gonna completely flip
my soul its forced to haunt
in my head i heard all the voices as they taunt
I'm know I'm not crazy
but lately I've been unusually lazy
I cant sleep I've become an insomniac
when I do wake up I'm a complete maniac
I hear a twisted symphony
filled with all my anxiety
go to write inside my diary
then the words want leave my head
there's nothing to do instead
this life is too much for me to handle
like any minute now I might drop a candle
down everything will burn up in flames
take me back from once I came
into the earth I will find my element
start to think about all the time I spent
what did I accomplish in this race
but how can I remember after all I've faced
how did everything become so dramatic
with every second life get more chaotic
I feel as if it follows and makes me mental
this obstacle isn't just a rental
and what it is I'm not sure
it has stripped me I was once pure
my emotions are its bait
all it has to do is wait
for me to fall into its disastrous trap
but I wont casue I have a map
to find my way from behind the curtain
and I might not be certain
of anything because everything makes me paranoid
it's my torturing life i long to avoid
even if I miss a step
I promise I want ever need any of your help
I couldn't find all my blogs but I did my best finding most of them.
Here's what I found in one of them.
This is a poem I wrote in May 2006.I had forgot all about it.I was 16 back then.
Excuse meh if it's crappy...I stopped writing after then....
So it's about how I was feeling at the time.
There's something bothering me
its everything that I ever see
its stalking me everywhere I go
and the answer to it I'll never know
how can I get rid of it
take a minute and down I sit
I try to figure out
what this feeling is all about
where has my sanity gone
its got the best of me insanity has risen
whatever it is has come back into my nerves
and I ask myself could this be what I deserve
it seems as if I'm on a death trip
any moment now I'm gonna completely flip
my soul its forced to haunt
in my head i heard all the voices as they taunt
I'm know I'm not crazy
but lately I've been unusually lazy
I cant sleep I've become an insomniac
when I do wake up I'm a complete maniac
I hear a twisted symphony
filled with all my anxiety
go to write inside my diary
then the words want leave my head
there's nothing to do instead
this life is too much for me to handle
like any minute now I might drop a candle
down everything will burn up in flames
take me back from once I came
into the earth I will find my element
start to think about all the time I spent
what did I accomplish in this race
but how can I remember after all I've faced
how did everything become so dramatic
with every second life get more chaotic
I feel as if it follows and makes me mental
this obstacle isn't just a rental
and what it is I'm not sure
it has stripped me I was once pure
my emotions are its bait
all it has to do is wait
for me to fall into its disastrous trap
but I wont casue I have a map
to find my way from behind the curtain
and I might not be certain
of anything because everything makes me paranoid
it's my torturing life i long to avoid
even if I miss a step
I promise I want ever need any of your help
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