I Fail At Life, F+

I am in SUCH bad mood right now.

First off....
-I still don't feel good
-I feel like I have to vomit
-I have cramps
-My pimples hurt
-I am NOT looking forward to school Monday (another semester to fail)
-My hair is so fucked up it's unbelievable
-I feel unloved
-I'm jealous of Tia & her boyfriend.OMG, they are so happy together & they're gonna have happy little babies :) Maybe not happy but you get my drift
-I need a job but what r the chances anyone will be dumb enough to hire meh?
That would be a guaranteed "running their company into the ground" move


I realized a few months ago to give up. I don't care anymore. I don't want anything anymore.
I wanna be thin & I'm having problems accomplished that.
Must I fail at everything in life? I mean it's ridiculous how horrible I am at everything.

If life was a report card and u were graded by the month, I'd fail EVERY time.
It would be....
F+
F+
F+
F+
F+
F- b/c I'm bound to screw up even the lowest grade of an F

It's not like I don't think about my future and everything. I do BUT things just never work out right for meh. I always hear "oh you don't try hard enough" I wanna punch them all in theier mouths. I've said this before "but if I tried my hardest things would still end the same way as meh not trying" There's NEVER anything different.

-I never get my happy ending.
-I never get good grades.
-I obviously never get the job.
-I never get as skinny as I want to be
-No gets meh.
-No one likes meh

My so called friends are still giving meh the same lectures they gave meh when I was 15.
Seriously, if I haven't changed in almost 6 years, I'm not changing and your giddy little optimistic quotes and advice isn't gonna help. Go fuck yourself. They don't help!

Ahhh! I wanna bang my head into the fucking wall right now, like seriously.
FML, FML, FMFL, okay, that's it. I'm going to set one of my stuffed animals on fire.