Every since I stopped a cutting a week ago I've still been hurting myself in the weirdest ways.
I'm waking up with cuts on meh every morning. I woke up this morning with a small slit on my hand between my thumb and index finger. A few days ago I accidentally slit my finger waking up. There was a blade under my pillow
This is the problem.I have a shitload of razor blades in my room that my mother 9or anyone else) knows nothing about it.I hid them everywhere just in case I needed to cut or something happened. Under my pillow, in my shoes, in all my dresser drawers, in the pockets of my clothes, EVERYWHERE!
Now I've forgotten where I stashed em all and they're showing up any where I go.
I was just looking my Strawberry Carmex (lip chap) in my dresser when my thumb gets caught on a rzor blade.It sliced thur my thumb, right on the area where the thumb bends. It didn't hurt but it sure as hell did bleed alot. I didn't do anything, I just held out my hand and let the blood run.It makes meh feel better.Sometimes I need to bleed just to know I'm still alive [that's my "emo" quote]
I went to my mother and told her I hurt myself.She was like did you cut your wrist while I was gone? She's been at the hospital since 10am.I said no, I had an accident in my room.She has never believed that I can accidentally hurt myself. I put an band-aid over it but it's too tight now I'm cutting off my circulation.It's seriously like going numb. Oh shit! They're gonna have to amputate my thumb =/
I'm waking up with cuts on meh every morning. I woke up this morning with a small slit on my hand between my thumb and index finger. A few days ago I accidentally slit my finger waking up. There was a blade under my pillow
This is the problem.I have a shitload of razor blades in my room that my mother 9or anyone else) knows nothing about it.I hid them everywhere just in case I needed to cut or something happened. Under my pillow, in my shoes, in all my dresser drawers, in the pockets of my clothes, EVERYWHERE!
Now I've forgotten where I stashed em all and they're showing up any where I go.
I was just looking my Strawberry Carmex (lip chap) in my dresser when my thumb gets caught on a rzor blade.It sliced thur my thumb, right on the area where the thumb bends. It didn't hurt but it sure as hell did bleed alot. I didn't do anything, I just held out my hand and let the blood run.It makes meh feel better.Sometimes I need to bleed just to know I'm still alive [that's my "emo" quote]
I went to my mother and told her I hurt myself.She was like did you cut your wrist while I was gone? She's been at the hospital since 10am.I said no, I had an accident in my room.She has never believed that I can accidentally hurt myself. I put an band-aid over it but it's too tight now I'm cutting off my circulation.It's seriously like going numb. Oh shit! They're gonna have to amputate my thumb =/
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